Hello, I have posted here before, for my RSI in my hands, and basically completely recovered before I finished the whole 40 days. I post every once and awhile if I have a flare up. Recently I have been doing much better in life especially compared to when I first started this program a year or so ago. I have been a skinny guy for a long time so I decided to start weightlifting for health reasons plus to improve my physical appearance. I was doing just fine and was seeing improvements. However I added a little weight to one of my exercises, afterwards my back was kind of sore. Basically my back starts to complain more and more if I sit down for a long time. I haven't exercised much since, its been about two weeks. This past weekend it almost felt completely better but today it felt a little bit worse. So doing this program is kind of being proactive, maybe I need more time to heal but I don't want to let pesky TMS extend the duration of my back pain. I almost certainly was doing something with bad form (although the little weight I added did not seem extreme to me at all when I got hurt). So when I feel better I will have someone teach me and spot me so I can continue to weightlift. I am not a very self-motivated person, but I was really sticking to an exercise schedule this time. My theory is just like TMS infected my hands to prevent me from improving myself (like getting a better job, going back to school), TMS is trying to block me from feeling better about my health and appearance by preventing me from exercising, and also bothering my at school. I definitely think it hurts more sitting just in class for an hour than it does being lazy at home playing videogames for three, which seems like a classic TMS selective pain type thing. Anyways, that was my long intro. Now the actual journaling prompt for today: So I'm supposed to write about perfectionism, which is a trait I don't think I actually have that much. However, I am very boastful and brag a lot and compete with others when they don't even care, especially in school. I get jealous when people do better than me. I don't do this to be mean spirited, I kind of do it sarcastically to make people laugh but I also do it because it seems to help me do better, gives me a little energy when I compete with others. So I wouldn't say I am a perfectionist, more than I just really wish I was better than everyone else. Maybe that is the same thing, but when I imagine a perfectionist I imagine someone driven more from their inner person, like someone who just wants everything they do to be perfect for it's own sake. I guess recently I have been trying (and failing) to be an extremely disciplined person. I guess it does hurt me that I fail so much. I am trying to eat less, exercise more, study for school more regularly and responsibly, and be more social. And I kind of fail at it all, but when I try at least I do a little better at least in one aspect.