Is COMPLETE recovery possible?

So I appear to be dealing with CPPS/Hard Flaccid or some combination between the two. I can tell my pelvic muscles are ungodly tight because I have tingling, pinching, burning, upset nerves feeling in my groin often. And I know this is a Mind-Body thing because I've made progress, and progress is proof. And all my tests and medical things are NEGATIVE. Nothing I can do more on that end.

So, I fell off the horse again. I've been at it for 9 months. I'm sitting on a hot-bed of anxiety because when if I calm myself down to a point where I stop feeling symptoms, I start getting TREMENDOUS anxiety, so intense that I can barely focus.

I'm afraid, honestly. I'm afraid that I'll never get better. And I keep scaring myself because I read stuff about people saying they feel a twinge every now and then. And for some reason the thought of that scares me. I just don't want to be dealing with this for the entire rest of my life, and I know that I'm catastrophizing by saying that but I just want to know that my normal state of being before this all happened is possible.

Just having a lot of trouble going about this. I've accepted nothing is wrong with my body, just having trouble implementing the techniques for making it past this. I really want to know that a healthy life is possible again. I do get fasciculations in my pelvis when I start working on my mental health, and I literally feel myself releasing anxiety when I laugh or do something positive.... just hard understanding that THIS is what it is. I know there's a rational part of my brain that knows what's REALLY going on... just hard accepting it.