It took me a very long time to diminish my pain and this is because there were only Sarno's books and ideas. All I achieved for the best part of a decade was a worsening of my pain and suicidal ideation. No one could have felt more wretched, angry, hopeless and overwhelmed than I. My saving grace was caring for someone who had received a crushing prognosis; my partner was told he had 3-5 years to live or best case scenario, be in a residential care home. I look at him now, smiling as he listens to music, fresh from his regular morning walk in the sunshine and reflect on how much we have achieved. The prognosis was made 10 years ago. The medical profession simply do not understand the nervous system and in caring for my partner I have outstripped them in terms of knowledge and understanding. What use is a fine intellect if you cannot apply what you know? As a Chinese Proverb states: "To know and to not do, is to not know." Most people who desperately struggle with recovery do not yet understand the nature of psychogenic pain and how it manifests moment by moment in their lives. They seek the magic bullet but it does not work that way. Yes, there are ephipanies but these come with graft and a devotion to healing. I've been on this forum for a while now. I've seen many people pass through, get stuck, get epically confused, dwell in hypochondria, anxiety, rage and best of all I see those who are prepared to go the distance. What marks these people out? They are open-minded and open-hearted. They learn to be self-compassionate. They find joy in the small things, they lend support to other people here who are struggling and their posts leave you feeling warm, hopeful and cared for. These are the people committed to personal growth beyond healing (please forgive the phrase personal growth. I am aware how annoying and vague it may seem but for now it'll have to do. At least it's not as vexing as 'closure'.) For you I suggest immersion in the good. I'm sure you've tinkered enough in the details and would benefit from resting that part of your mind. Read Success Stories. This one by @ezer may help: http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/pelvic-pain-healed.8680/ (Pelvic Pain - Healed) My healing only began when I kicked all notions of TMS into the long grass. Sleeping and pleasure are my trusted allies. Being light of heart and playful and compassionate are qualities I nurture. I am kind to myself. This may be the most healing salve of all.