Hello all, I direct my question to Alan or anyone who wants to help The last few weeks I have already looked up a lot of information about TMS and have also gone through this site thoroughly. It seems well known, only my situation or problem is complex (or so it seems), hence this question: Situation: male, 34 years old, severe scoliosis that developed when I was little (S bend 36 °, 2 vertebrae fused at the bottom, and on one side the piece that connects the lower vertebra to the pelvis is missing). I have a bulge along the outside of my back (very tight). My spine is in a very bad shape (you understand that), but I can't create a feeling in my spine, I don't feel it. The pain is on the right side (my muscles?); I think my muscles on the right have to work hard to keep me straight and carry me. It is my belief that my muscles are also responsible for my skew, because the psoas is attached to the vertebra and just there is my curvature. It has also been established that the psoas is very large and tense on one side (the determiner had never seen this before). If I succeed in letting this relax, I might get a bit more balanced. (but I have already tried many relaxation exercises for this, but no improvement) What is wrong: - tilt Visually you can see (or I see) that I am crooked, it is a serious crooked position ... I can stand up straight by shifting my pelvis and letting my back muscles (drop) and that way leaning pelvis backwards , then I am visually straighter). But requires an effort? All this weighs heavily, you understand that (from the outside world I seem like a normal young man with a busy life, everything seems to be going well in all other areas). - pain (I have pain in my right muscles and buttocks, they are under constant tension as soon as I get up or walk. NOT when I am sitting or lying down). This problem has taken over my entire life (even though I work full time), and it affects my mood. I have really tried everything in the last 10 years ... TMS? - is it TMS? (I've been in pain for as long as I know and of course I'm focused on the pain and working on it every day) But the big question I have: there is indeed something seriously wrong structurally ... And the pain is not in the vertebrae that are crooked, but is it possibly indirectly caused by it? My pain is on the outside of my corner. My body has to be able to absorb such skew and my muscles are tense to the right. By applying the pain recovery program, can my body cause the muscles to relax and regain balance? So that the left side can also participate and I experience less pain? Is that TMS too? Is this really it? I would really like to believe that it is TMS, or that this has an influence as well ... Only there is really a serious problem that is visually visible. The question is, what caused my scoliosis ... here too there are many opinions around. I believe in a strong connection between body and mind. It is definitely disturbed for me ... Of course I am angry with my body and I want to be 'normal' ... (is being worked on). - Meditation ... I have been doing this for a few months but I don't notice much yet ... the meditation itself works well but I don't notice any change .. What is less successful is my body traces from head to toe and feeling every part of the body ( but I will continue to practice). According to my reading in your post, somatic tracking would 'suddenly' surface some kind of unprocessed items (thanks to somatic tracking), which would not have been processed yet? Do you have any further advice for me? A kind of step-by-step plan. It would be a great help! I will do everything I can to improve this (in a relaxed way). Please? (note: My English is not very good and a translation program helped me) Thanks in advance!