I'm feeling defeated today. Yesterday was a tough, highly uncomfortable day. I think I'm experiencing the symptom imperative really severe. My usual neck pain and transformed into many different pains over the last few weeks, the last week (and yesterday) was the peak of pain. My anxiety has been high since menstrual cycle last week and I'm now having tinnitus and ear pressure. I hadn't slept the night before. I tried sooo many different self soothing techniques and they all made my sensatios worst. then used the Claire Weekes method and everything got even worst! I had an emotional break down with my mom and then went to the ER. I try so hard to not go to the ER. I try even harder to not take meds. But I'm at my breaking point. I also think I need to see an endocrinologist to check my hormones because everything always gets worse around my monthly cycle. I've been doing deep, slow breathing exercises and they made my muscles even tighter and the ringing in my ear got louder and louder. I think tried to tell the sensations to get worst (because I heard people talk about using that technique), and sure enough, the sensations definitely got worst. I don't understand. I really need some loving encouraging words right now. I can admit I'm highly sensitized and flooded my fear. Knowing my sensations are harmless and not life threatening aren't enough to soothe me. In fact, I don't know what soothes me. I'm feeling low and having a hard time seeing a point in living. I may have to succumb to medication and I hate that.