Day 32 The last mistake i made

Hello everyone,

so the last mistake i made was 13 days ago. I am addicted to playing online videogames on PC because it distracts me from what happens around me and brings a bit of joy in my life.

I spent a whole bunch of money on it just to progress further and at the time i cashed the money in and i spent it ingame, it was a feeling of joy.
On the next day tho i regretted it instantly and it felt like it was a desperation move and i felt sad.

The next thing is if i spent that much money on it, i want to play it like 24/7 because i spent that much amount on it, so it doesn´t felt like i made a mistake. Does that sound weird ?

 

Everything that is too much is dangerous.

 

I am a very beginner but I am just feeling that it’s the way you treat yourself in that situation that is most important not if you play or not?
Maybe you can help yourself in being a very good friend to yourself and be nice to you, understanding you need a distraction/ time off, allowing you it, not criticizing yourself for the money, enjoy your time off and appreciate when you come back a bit rested?
Good luck ++