Ah, I see. I guess at this point of my journalling and processing, I can't imagine what I could still be repressing. I've processed and wept and yelled about almost everything there is that could be worth yelling about, and yes, I find that everyday I find something new but things are starting to calm down in my mind. I think for me, it's the preoccupation that's keeping it going- the constant worrying and struggling with pulling the attention away. But a win today! I walked for the 3rd time? After about two months of doing HIIT training but walking was more scary for me and did 30 minutes. Yay! My legs burned and my toe hurts, but I AM GOING TO KEEP BELIEVING that this is a conditioned response. I'm just going to keep believing! About the third world- I'd disagree. I'm from the third world; the great dark continent. In it right now. My sister has had TMS her whole life, my mum too, uncle, even my baby cousin who's 13. I think it's everywhere, the world is becoming in a sense a more stressful place to be for everyone I think but even if it is, it's everywhere- just not as documented. How did you deal with the obsessing? And doubt? Especially in regards to conditioned responses?