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I agree with all of these great responses, @chriswatts369, and I realize that you were hoping for "the one answer", which you have not received.

That's because there is no such thing as the one answer. If there was, we wouldn't need to be here.

Also, very sadly, I have to be honest and state that there is also no such thing as a quick turnaround in the case of childhood trauma. It sounds like you've achieved a lot in just a year, which is a significant success. From my (admittedly untrained) observations over a number of years here, it's going to take more time to get through those convoluted layers that were built up by your immature and primitive brain, as it tried to ensure your physical survival when you literally had no ability to protect yourself.

It's also a fact that the TMS brain mechanism operates differently at different times, depending upon how any particular individual is experiencing stress at any particular time. This can vary from day to day and even hour to hour.

I tell you this with full understanding that this concept might increase your stress. This is where you get to make the choice to cling to your stress, or to let it go, accept what is, stop watching the calendar and judging your progress or perceived lack of progress, and take proactive steps to move forward with constructive activities.