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@Walt Oleksy , very true more time I spend feeling the symptom, more I am overwhelmed by it. I realized and diagnosed with TMS two years ago and after couple of months I could get rid of my chronically disabling wrist pain, burning feet, tingling and numbness for which I was diagnosed with Idiopathic small fiber neuropathy(meaning - we couldn't find what it is). That was very empowering and liberating. But my TMS manifested into increase in my chronic anxiety and caused racing negative thoughts, insomnia, fear and some anger. Which is going on for couple of years. I am a Sarnoian goodist, ambitious, experienced separation from my parents and self esteem issue as child. As a three year old kid I could remember being extreme goodist and very small and skinny little kid I was prone to being bullied, always stayed out of crowd and had my own imaginative world. I didn't feel safe, which I see is imprinted in my sub consious and couldn't grow out of that mindset completely and I am 40 years old now... I am wondering how I can reconcile my past with my current self. Another wierd thing is that I have very very tight guts for the past 20 years that gets worse with stress.
I am reading and listening Alan Gordon's writings and videos. I think I may need some therapy, hypnosis or may be some thing else... I tried positive reinforcing self talk, it helps at that moment and I find myself down, next day. I was considering Ashok Gupta's Amygdala retratining(http://www.guptaprogramme.com/), but some one in this forum mentioned that he doesn't deel with sub-concious mind..Any suggestions?.. directions?.. thanks