Like a lot of people on here, I believe unresolved subconscious rage/anger and general life frustration is one of the main causes of my TMS. Some of it goes back to childhood and some is a result of my life experience, current experience, and even some related to having TMS itself. I have been through TMS psychotherapy with one of the excellent practitioners on this site, and part of that involves ISTDP (intensive short term psychodynamic therapy) to try to uncover some of this rage and anger. The goal was to "feel" the rage/anger instead of thinking about it. Supposedly it feels like "heat" for some people. My problem is that everytime I go through any process of trying to explore my anger or rage, I think about it and analyze it more than feel it. I don't know that I really feel it, other than it makes my stomach feel tight and my arms stiff. It makes me angrier, and generally I feel physically worse afterwards. It just leaves me with a feeling of resentment toward my parents and even God. The more unsent letters I wrote or journaling I did to express my inner anger/rage, the more resentment was created toward my parents in particular. So I stopped doing that, b/c it led to me basically hating them for creating me like this to be a perfectionistic neurotic pain-filled TMSer. They could have done some simple things to make my childhood more enjoyable and less stressful, like playing with me more or hugging me or not fighting with each other so much. They raised me in an environment of pure stress and anxiety and tension. Realizing that made me bitter and resentful, rather than allowing me to release the anger and forgive them. I want them to have TMS instead of me. And thus my TMS hasn't resolved. The anger is still there. But to ignore or suppress this rage/anger is just as bad. It stays stored in my body as pain. I know that is true. But I feel like the more I explore the anger, the more angry I get at those who are at fault. The more I want to blame the people responsible. Because I know almost none of this is my fault. I just don't understand how to feel it in a way that I can let it go and release it so that it is no longer stored in my body, but it doesn't generate even more anger and resentment. I know I need to feel the anger/rage instead of think/analyze, but that is easier said than done. That's part of why I have TMS--I have problems with feeling. I am always in my head thinking/analyzing. Any thoughts?