Day 8

I can say, at this point of the journey, I have some pain-free moments. They perhaps don’t last long, but they are incredible to experience. The pain I have in my leg, nerve pain from sciatica, runs all the way through my calf and to the bottom of my feet. Generally speaking, even if I don’t have stabbing/searing/throbbing pain, it almost feels like my pain has pain and those areas of my leg are tender to touch. Like the pain has left a bruise. BUT, NOW, when the pain is silenced, I can press and touch along those areas and it feels just like it does on the right side. It’s a tell….this faker, deceiver, trickster, malinger-er pain has shown its cards! The pain is coming from my brain, not from structural issues. Usually, when the pain flares, it’s because of a stressful situation I am in. I had noticed that connection before and wondered, but now I KNOW. It’s the trickster. And so, I call it out and speak truth to it. I’m certain I do most of this out loud, which has garnished more than a few sideways glances. But since most people are speaking into their AirPods, we all look like we are talking to the voices in our heads anyways. I will also say, I feel very much that God has led me to this and is leading me through it. I’m grateful and hopeful.

 

That is so encouraging that you are having some pain free moments! Keep up the hard work-I'm not too far ahead of you..I'm on day 12 and feeling optimistic about this program!