Sad and losing hope - levator ani

Hi,

I’m not here posting for sympathy, but to hopefully get some encouragement. I’ve had this “levator ani syndrome” rectal aching since March of 2018. It has forever changed my life . I’ve confirmed there’s nothing medically wrong so my brain has accepted that . (Blood work, mri , physical/visual exam).

I’m just getting exhausted with the roller coaster of having good days then awful days - weeks of just aching and discomfort from the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep with no concrete ways to lower the pain or get relief .

Have read DR Sarnos books, watched some YouTube videos on somatic healing , and tried just living life and not focusing on it and nothing has worked.

I feel like something is just missing and I don’t know what it is. A coach, supplemental medicine with the work im doing , having the proof that this can be beat.

Im having a hard time accepting this is what my
Life needs to be like for the rest of my time on this earth and realizing it can be pain free, I just need a better road map to get there.


Any feedback is greatly appreciated and thank you for taking the time for any input.

Sky

 

Ignoring is not Dr. Sarno’s prescription. He does not only say to just “go live life” by simply living as you always did. Is this how you’ve been approaching your symptoms?
Dr. Sarno sent many of his patients to psychologists because your emotional life, in particular internal, subconscious rage was an equal emphasis to his treatment - and it’s the part our minds often want to avoid like the plague. I have not used it, but others are really finding benefit in Vanessa Blackstone’s Pain Reprocessing workbook. Dr. Schecter, Dr. Schubiner also have workbooks and this website has a free program called the Structured Educational Program (link at the top of the forum page). All will help you with the work.

 

Have you tried the program on here? It's the SEP and free! This could get you started working each day learning about TMS and responding to journaling prompts. It's a good starting place or when when you are stuck.

 

I had pain in that area for 6 years so I know how you feel! All the suggestions above are great to start

 

Yes, I’ve tried hyper fixating on it and then I’ve tried just living life. I guess I need to find the balance I’ll check out “ Vanessa Blackstone’s Pain Reprocessing workbook“ and Dr. Schecter and Dr. Schubiners workbook today. I think I’m having trouble addressing the subconscious rage. Thank you for taking the time to write these suggestions.

 

I have not, I will check this out. Thank you very much.

 

Awe I’m sorry you’ve went through this as well. Are you fully healed now ?
And thanks , I’m going to look into them today.

 

I consider myself as such yep - no exercise or movement causes any pain - I can have some low symptoms from emotional stimulus but it doesn't bother me, doesn't impact my life at all now whereas it basically dominated it for all those years

 

I think this is where everybody is when they come onto this forum. and it’s where everybody is tempted to go a lot of times. TMS is so discouraging! but if you don’t give up, you’ll find a way out. and nobody knows the formula that it will take for you. Everybody’s formula is different. some basics are the same, but the timing and everything else is unique, so don’t compare yourself to anyone else and above all keep your hopes alive!