Those constant symptoms...

It's my main FB feed where it came up unfortunately!

 

Oh… …. Well then…

 

Rusty, your issue with wanting to work out/run and having to pay for this reminds me of what Howard Schubiner tells about violinists. He says there's a research with this group that shows their sensitivity on the left hand is way higher than the right one, and that's because they're usually terrified of hurting it and losing its movement.

I think the stakes for you are too high right now. You're sort of putting all the eggs on this basket. I'm not telling you to stop doing what you love, but isn't there anything else you can add as a plan B when your limbic system is on fire? Things like music, photography, healthy cooking etc.

 

I'm not ready to abandon it just yet. I am working on making sure on the days when it is really bad to be okay with resting.

 

This brings up a good point. I believe part of recovery in a situation like this is becoming indifferent to the pain - ambivalent about it - whatever you might call it but certainly the opposite of watching it like a hawk and waiting for it to "ping" with pain. This is adjacent and similar to the thinking of outcome independence.