I wish I had time to give a longer reply. I would search the forum for others on here from Germany and write to them privately. Maybe you can create your own group. Also, maybe try making a rule for yourself to reduce the number of times per hour that you let yourself bend you knee. And continue to cut back. You're not going to get well today. You can only take small steps in the right direction. You're very aware of how obsessed you are, which everyone has already explained is feeding your symptoms. Work on focusing on other things, just for 5 minutes at a time for example. Say to yourself, for the next 5 minutes I'm not going to let myself think about this. You must have times when all your attention is going toward your daughter. Do you notice your symptoms lessen then? That is evidence you have TMS! Best of luck to you!